THE END OF ANOTHER CALENDAR YEAR.....

...Getting older.

Am I getting better?

I honestly have no idea.

All I know how to do is survive.

IT'S DECEMBER...

....and there was snow over the weekend so that messed up some of my plans!

But...what can one do?

It's just life here in the Midwestern United States!

Ho ho ho...here we go to mistletoe!

I don't like snow...so why do I live here?

It just messed up everything!

Last Thanksgiving Day...

...was Nov. 26, 2015.

And I posted that I was beginning my seasonal depression.

Today is Thanksgiving Day and again I am feeling depressed.

What will happen after Jan. 20, 2017?

I am afraid.

But I am old.

Why am I scared?

WHAT WILL HAPPEN NOW????

Three days after the announcement of election results.

The World Series is over.

The Cubs won.

There was a terrific celebration.

What will happen in January?

I am glad I am over fifty.

What Can I Say? Life is Complicated

October has been warm.

I hosted two successful weekend nature walks.

The baseball playoffs have altered things.

I am now fifty-one years old.

November begins in two days.

Time to prepare for winter.

It's not a bad thing.

I am here.

Today is October 1

This is my birth month.

I had fun in September; it was a good month for me. I mean it wasn't a good month for me attempting to get a refurbished GPS but both defective units are in transit to the shipper so I should soon be receiving a credit card refund!

I will be fifty-one years old this month. That is my mother's age when she became widowed.

I want to be happy.

I believe I deserve to be happy.

With achieving happiness there is work.

Not necessarily bad work.

:)

HAVING FUN AS FALL BEGINS!

As a recent PBS program about memories stated, "You are a work-in-process."

And if I am then everyone else is too.

I'll remember that when I start stressing over past issues.

Issues tissues wipe your butt...etc.

Live life live life and love it!

LABOR DAY!

United States Labor Day is the first Monday in September.

I used to dislike this holiday; it meant the beginning of the school year which for me ages eight through seventeen meant the resumption of the possibility of five consecutive days per week of peer abuse.

It's not "a normal part of childhood."

Nor is it a "rite of passage" or "no big deal."

IT IS PEER ABUSE!

But those days are over. That is the pain will always be there but as my significant other once stated I now have a good life. :) I am in my early fifties, currently healthy after a few serious issues which occurred during my mid-forties, a nice home, plenty of money, and virtually no family responsibilities.

:)

Of course that latest item is due to my own choices and actions.

So...on that note Happy Labor Day, Everybody!

I'M HERE!

In order to live well one must first live.

And it is September third just after the "real" new year and I am happy healthy and I am ALIVE!

:)

REJECTION

To take it personally or not, that is the question.

But since I am an Adult Survivor of Peer Abuse, what is the answer??

One two three let's start the Former Child Terrorist Chorus:

"Ah we really didn't mean it! We we just joking around!"

IT'S AUGUST!!

The so-called "last hurrah" of summer!

The summer of 2016 has been hot and steamy; as of Aug. 1 there had been more ninety plus days that 2014 and 2015 combined!

And I had hoped that Chicago would host the 2016 SummerOlympics; I was so looking forward to it as a way to celebrate my fiftieth summer!

I am now two months short of my fifty-first birthday, the age of Michael Jackson upon his untimely and shocking death!

Negotation Skills?

The above is generally not taught.

"You mean your father and I didn't teach you negotiation skills?"

I was too polite to say, "No, just the opposite. You dragged me to a house of worship which preached a school of self-sacrifice and throwing one's life away for 'God' and others!"

In order to successfully negotiate one must know what one wants and what one believes he or she is worth.

I really feel I was raised with so many contradictions.

But wasn't everybody who was raised "Christian?"

"Give to everyone who asks of you! Give away all your possessions."

And then after church the entire congregation goes home.

But if one is to "give everything away" should one even have a home?

Middle of the Year!

Yes, ladies and germs were are now halfway through 2016!

In the midst of another summer and it's now forty years since the big U.S. Bicentennial; I was ten years old then.

Do the math, please; how old am I now? :)

Staying busy is the key of course!

I'M STAYING HOME TODAY.

I have a cold.

Anything wrong with staying home when one has a cold????

HAPPY?

What do I need to do to achieve happiness?

Was I ever happy before Fall 1973?

I believe I was but how did peer abuse relate to all of it?

WHEN YOU HELP SOMEONE YOU LOVE YOU HELP YOURSELF!

Self explanatory.

APR. 30

The day Adolf Hitler committed suicide.

The end of the "heating season"; beginning May 1 IL landlord are exempt from providing heat until Oct. 1.

My furnace is still broken; I've been busy attending to sick people.

Rah Rah Rah!

I AM SO GLAD I DIDN'T COMMIT SUICIDE WHEN I WAS A MISERABLE BULLIED CHILD/ADOLESCENT

...Because every day noeis so full of wonderful surprises!

There was a Simpsons' episode from 2000 with a U.S.President Donald J. Trump!

Talk about life imitating art!

And as for me...THE PROOF IS IN THE PUDDING!

LOL!

Leap Year Day!

If one's birthday is Feb. 29 then one does not have one's birthday "every year."

My first Leap Year Day was Feb. 29, 1968 so today is my thirteenth Leap Year Day! Does that mean bad luck??? For years I was the proud owner of a black cat!

I ENJOYED JANUARY!

Somehow it was an enjoyable month.

Usually I do not enjoy winter...

But...

January 2016 was an enjoyable month!

Maybe it's a matter of attitude......

INTO 2016....

As a new year it is here!

It's nice to get back to regular schedules.

Of course the winter weather has hit here in Chicago.

Still fighting against depression.