Here I Am Post Stroke

And my favorite boyfriend has passed away.

More bad news too; my sister-in-law (brother's wife) was diagnosed with stage three colon cancer.

This is my December 2018 post; it's my fervent hope you enjoyed it as much as I myself did!

NOVEMBER 1

Now the holiday onslaught begins in earnest!

At least Chicagoland had decent Halloween weather.

It's been chilly since October 11; almost felt like winter was here.

Gotta get going!

SCHOOL ANXIETY DREAM

I had one last night.

Of course the class was somewhat nontraditional but nonetheless it was a school dream.

OCTOBER IS HERE!

Nice fall colors on the trees; beautiful.

Hopefully the nice weather will hold.

It's supposed to rain for the better part of the week; is it possible that will wash our sins away?

HA!

Yesterday Was Tuesday September 11

A beautiful late summer day, bright sunny and pleasant.

Just like Tuesday September 11, 2001.

I was thirty-five years old then. I am now fifty-two.

There have been so many changes for me since then, a divorce, a resident move, two office moves, and a whole new lifestyle!

Busy busy busy.

Here's To September

September 2 is the new worst birthday.

Once it was November 30.

I'm sure no one out there knows what I mean.

And that is probably a good thing.

Since I've always been different and usually maintain a diverse viewpoint.

Tomorrow is Labor Day...rather ironic that it is a work holiday!

And I don't want to miss an August post!

So...what did I accomplish this week?

I performed well at work and I assisted a friend by taking him to and from a medical procedure.

I think it is good for people to be of use to others...on a strictly voluntary basis of course!

And I made arrangements for a few outings...they are looking to be fun!

I AM I AM I AM

And I definitely do not want to miss making a July post!

I really had no idea a seventy plus man could be so FUSSY!

We will see how long this arrangement lasts.

I wonder sometimes why things happen the way they do.

I don't have as much alone time as before....I wonder how long this will last.

Survive survive survive!

AH I MISSED MAKING A MAY POST!

Just have to do a few extra ones for June!

Here we are into summer.

I am facing new challenges this year.

But my problems are solvable.

No April Fool Jokes!

I actually made it through the day minus that childish chaos!

Now it's batten down the hatches for what I am convinced will be a difficult series of weeks.

"April Is The Cruelest Month" --T.S. Eliot "The Wasteland"

And April 2018 has the same calendar as April 1984!

Will make comparisons rather easy I suppose.

But Easter 1984 was on April 22 (a rather soulless day as I recall) and Easter 2018 has already occurred.

I am I am I am.

March...

And onward we March.

I'm currently attempting to purge and organize several years of paperwork.

It's a big job but I've done a lot of shredding already.

I will never be the most organized person on this planet but I can definitely improve.

Either get busy living or get busy dying.....

February...

...has never been my favorite month but there's no reason why I can't work on making the entire winter season more palatable.

I'm home today; my office has a new use-it-or-lose it year vacation plan with over five full weeks of time so we are all taking advantage of the new policy. Almost everyone that is; one lady who lives within a ten minute drive expressed her intention to work today.

So here I am...fifty-two years old. Definitely not young anymore; but to be perfectly honest my younger years were plagued with various level of unhappiness so it's not that big of a deal to be older.

Older that is; not old!

What will the rest of 2018 bring? Issues tissues and I can't remember the rest of the quote....yadda yadda yadda.

I like being with myself; I don't feel alone when I am home "alone." If anything I prefer it.

Other people may find themselves woefully lonely but not me. I like it.

This fact does not mean there is something "wrong" with me; it just attests to the reality that people have different preferences and want different things from life.

DEPRESSION LIFTING....

...for now.

Today is the seventh anniversary of my second cancer surgery.

All has since been well...relatively speaking.

Always Look on the Bright Side of Life!

....Here we go again in the throes of winter!

And I am no longer young.

I wonder sometimes how long I have to live.

Managing....