Just Getting Over A Cold....

At the age of fifty two I'm trying to take things a little less seriously.

I've been working and saving money for a full thirty years now.

I've been through a divorce and a cancer diagnosis.

But I am still here.

My mother recently turned eighty years old and her mental powers just aren't what they were.

Well...getting older...what can I say?

December 5th....

....And counting!

On we go on we go.

When I was a child my parents continually stated "The More Thing Change The More Things Stay The Same."

I am now over fifty and I fully understand my personal dislike of the phrase.

To me it meant I was never going to change and would continue to be a social reject into young adulthood and beyond.

Is this a fair statement? Maybe not....but it was the reality as I saw it.

INTO NOVEMBER....

After the Halloween parties conclude the cold weather begins and it is time to contemplate the holiday season and subsequent new calendar year.

2018 will bring me changes...more significant than any of the previous ten years.

But I am convinced I am equal to the challenges and will welcome new opportunities.

Bye for now!

SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENED ON THURS. OCT. 12, 2017

My weekday gym has a new instructor teaching dance on Thursday nights.

And she did a very good class!

I'm looking forward to more!

FREE AT LAST FREE AT LAST...

...but what constitutes freedom?

When I divorced at age thirty-eight my goal was to be a millionaire at age fifty.

I didn't make it; I didn't achieve this milestone until age fifty-one.

I will turn fifty-two years old next week and I'm no closer to happiness that before.

But what constitutes happiness?

Peace of mind?

Does that result in freedom or happiness?

Or both?

Here I Am!

Fifty one years old! A full thirty years a few month after university graduation.

I am here I am here I am here!

HERE WE ARE INTO AUGUST...

Yesterday was the anniversary of the death of Elvis Presley.

I remember hearing about it on the automobile radio.

Days are getting shorter and the school buses are out again.

Just glad I no longer have to exist in that atmosphere.

In my fifties in my fifties in my fifties.

And still striving towards that elusive happiness!

The Last Day of July...

...enjoy summer while you can.

I'm just extremely glad my school days are over.

Actually they have been over for thirty years.

I should say "my school years" or my "school years of hell."

I have a terrible memory; I never forget anything!

Is it finally time to move on?

But my hellish childhood and adolescent experiences are part of who I am.

Unfortunately.

INDEPENDENCE DAY!

I am independent.

My life isn't perfect but I try to be content.

I am lucky I am here; my doctor diagnosed my cancer at an early stage.

I have no lingering ill effects.

I am here.

IS CHANGE AN INEVITABLE PART OF LIFE?

I believe that it probably is.

But to what extent.

I do believe that each of us his responsible for his or her own happiness.

The above is an issue for me; that is I have trouble keeping myself happy.

KIND JUNE!

Enjoy enjoy enjoy!

Be happy be happy.

We had had wonderful early summer weather lately.

Here's hoping it stays that way.

CRUEL MAY?

It is what it is.

But I don't feel like this has been a cruel month?

What do other people think?

CRUEL APRIL

T.S. Eliot wrote "April the the cruelest month."

Is it?

The U.S. Civil War began AND ended during the month of April (1861 and 1865 to be exact.)

The U.S. entered World War I on April 6, 1917; Berlin fell in April 1945 with Hitler committing suicide on April 30.

When I was younger and more ignorant I wished this were my birth month.

Spring?

Has it sprung yet?

I'm reading a book called "Sapiens." It pretty much states that our cultures are the result of large groups of people believing in an "imagined reality." Not only are all gods fictional but so are the "Rights of Man;" this concept is as much an invented fiction as the old Codes of Hammarabi. And people from the U.S. shouldn't consider their culture superior to the old Hindi caste system, re those old ideas about the "purity of the white race."

I am very "striaight" I do not find black men attractive. I also don't find them repulsive but black men just don't "do it" for me. Is that due to my own biology (which I believe is the course of my heterosexuality) or the result of culture?

CRAZY LIFE....

Mother tried to engage me in conversation about reason vs. faith.

OMG! I don't want to open that can of worms!

Today is Holy Saturday. Not a big deal to me anymore.

Objectivism states that people should enjoy being alive on this earth. I enjoy it more and more every day!

March March March....

Is not my favorite month but onward we go.

Accomplish Accomplish Accomplish.....

I am aware of my past.

My past will always affect me.

But I will not let my past control my present or my future.

A Sense of Accomplishment

...is definitely a good thing.

Another goal reached!

Now it is time to surmount another one.

:)

GROUND HOG DAY LAST WEEK!

And I didn't see my shadow!

Terrific vacation to the West Indies (are there even any East Indies)?

Luckily the winter weather here hasn't been too bad!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

It's cold out there!