VANDA Productions

 Here is where it all started:

Flowers in the Attic - Wikipedia

Big thrills during the summer of 1980--forty-five years ago!

During the mid twenty tens I discovered that Lifetime Network had produced a series of movies through the fourth book "Seeds of Yesterday".

The action of "Seeds" occurred during the summer of 1997; I read it during the summer of 1986, and I vividly recall thinking "I will be in my early thirties then."

I am now in my late fifties!

Time flies....

Then a few years later I saw "Garden of Shadows" in a bookstore and leafed through it enough to reveal a few more "secrets...."

Now I have just learned via my Roku that Lifetime produced a whole series based on "Garden" called:

Flowers in the Attic: The Origin.

And there are other books in the series:

Christopher's Diary: Secrets of Foxworth - Wikipedia

Christopher's Diary: Echoes of Dollanganger - Wikipedia

Christopher's Diary: Secret Brother - Wikipedia

And even a follow up to the Audrina book:

• In an October 2015 interview, Andrew Neiderman (the ghostwriter) announced that he was writing a sequel to My Sweet Audrina, titled Whitefern. This was met with a mostly unfavorable reaction from V. C. Andrews' core fans. The sequel was released by Pocket Books July 26, 2016.

It is weird contemplating my feelings forty-five years ago as a bullied and rejected fourteen-year-old wondering if anyone would ever love me.

Here I Go Again.....

 Last night I experienced horrible nightmares.

Is this part of becoming older?

I certainly hope not.

Getting into fall now....we aren't yet there but we are getting there!

On The Eve of Sixty....

....here I am!

I don't know what I expected at sixty.

Just not this...

On the eve of bliss.....

Sixty sixty guess who is nearly sixty!

Into July

 My brother's wife died at the end of May.

That is a blunt reminder that we are all immortal.

When I was a child I frequently confused "immoral" and "immortal."

Go figure.

I also confused "brought" and "bought."

Maybe this was a mental block.

I Am Here And I Will Live....

 I possess a certain amount of survivor guilt.

Why am I here when so many others have died????

I am an atheist; I leaned towards the agnostic side for several years then my 2010 cancer diagnosis at age forty-four tipped the balance for me.

As a result, following my 2018 stroke there was nobody to receive my anger.

I am firm in my belief that there are no deities!

The above is not anything to upset over.

It merely is  REALITY!

I don't always relish hiding my atheism.

I have accepted that it is one of the requirement toward harmonious relationships with other homo sapiens.

Tbere are days when I fervently wish I were not a member of the said species.

However unlike to protagonist of Franz Kafka's "The Metamorphosis" I never change overnight.....

A Death In The Family....

 ...Too soon....too soon!

It Is May!

 Is the entire month one gorgeous holiday?

Does every maiden wish that her lad would be a cad?